Today the pain is worse and I feel a bit poorly. I think I messed up my medication overnight. I remember thinking at 6:00 am that if I take my 12 hr medication now then that will mean it will fizzle out at around 4:00 pm at which point the question is did I then take anything. I am suspicious that I didn\u2019t and the app doesn\u2019t help because I filled it in retrospectively. If that\u2019s the case it would account for my current poorliness because it is the major pain killer in my arsenal. I can\u2019t risk chancing a dose cos that could be quite a serious overdose. I MUST obey my app to the letter \u2013 however much I want to nap or delay a dose, when it dings I must blooming well do what it says. Anything extra taken enter it into the app as I take it, not later.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A different topic.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Something that we all know for certain is that when you recommend a film, a book, an exhibition to someone the likelihood is that they won\u2019t follow it up. It will sit in their inbox or on their shelves making them feel guilty and eventually be forgotten by suggester and suggestee. I have done this many times in the past, less so now given I have so much time to explore the random stuff you have been sending me. So I have been pondering whether to circulate a video that I want you to watch. The reason that I feel ready to take the risk is that I am so amazed to find a video that so perfectly encapsulates my world view I just had to share it. It expresses everything I have tried to articulate in conversations with some of you and in some of the work that I have made you watch. That really doesn\u2019t sound inviting does it but I can\u2019t dress it up as anything other than \u201cif you want to understand how I have been seeing the world since my abandonment of the Church of England or any notion of god while at primary school then this video says it all.\u201d Bizarrely it seems to chart my philosophical evolution in the exact same order that it occurred for me. The philosophers tomes I read or pretended to read are still knocking about here at home. I won\u2019t claim they are well thumbed but they have never been relegated to the car boot sale or to the charity shops and were they to be date stamped they would follow the sequence in which they are discussed in this film.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
So here it is. If you really can cope with all 11 minutes then watch the last minute or so.<\/p>\n\n\n\n