I am back and the important thing for me is to just accept it. No good getting fed up as your face caves in and and your bladder and your sweat glands explode better to just just laugh at the absurdity of a night spent rewriting Beatles albums on a hallucinatory loop. It’s a fascinating place. First of all I am fully aware that I am hallucinating, always have since a child if my temperature went up, despite awareness I cannot accept at the time that the hallucination does not have some sort of useful and logical purpose. As an exercise I shall attempt to write it down.<\/p>\n
I have been here before \u2013 raging temperature
\nIf so why didn’t they put it in the right order (they refers to amorphous medical experts)
\nAh yes I will put this one first before that one, that’s what they said
\nAhi that’s better, comfy now
\n(A few minutes rest)
\nWake up
\nHave a wee
\nRepeat until morning<\/p>\n
For anyone who has not experience this let my explain it is not fun. It is like being stuck in a Christopher Nolan film but with no guns to get you out.<\/p>\n
I have never sweated so much ever, I get through 3 tee shirts a night. It’s a vicious circle cos as you sweat you need to drink creating more fuel for the sweat glands, and as you drink you need to wee thus you are effectively acting as a bed bound water recycling plant.<\/p>\n
Yes I am now officially a post human again. Kept alive by technology and whatever resistance my body can muster. The technology is amazing and I am so grateful and happy as it gives me reasonable prospects, a good spirit, continuing joy, life, life, life \u2013 it also makes you feel physically ughhhhhh\u2026 And I make no bones about that \u2013 dizzy very, belly ache, brain addled, tired, achy, fluey, pissy, non pooey, hungry but kinda special and kinda amazing ( I repeat myself) amazingly lucky.<\/p>\n
So the right wing and capitalism has finally won and we have no middle man between money and power. Trump is the golden calf and should rightly enjoy being worshiped on behalf of the thousands of years invested by similar minded less golden calves, whose only aspiration is to be as golden as him. Why has this all come to pass now . It easy in my view. Since 911 capitalism has been afraid. Afraid it was going to have to start to think about giving back some of what it has stolen, afraid of the chaos that the wrong sort of religious bigotry would bring about. It’s reaction is like our ginger cat, when it gets afraid it pisses itself and its hits things. Capitalism lashed out, blamed everyone other than itself and settled on a few particular scapegoats that made easy targets \u2013 refugees, religious minorities, Mexicans, disabled scroungers, poor people etc. All the time stirring up fear in order to divert people from the real problem which wasn’t fear it was greed. The greed that created a word of such staggering injustice that no adjective exists to describe the staggeringlyness of it all. Stamping on one group of murderous arseholes will not get us anywhere until the current group of murderous arseholes are deposed or admit they got the whole thing wrong. With the likes of Trump in power I guess that we may have to wait a bit longer yet and that means more Berlins. What a mess.<\/p>\n
Talking of messes. Why do I keep mucking my websites up? Well it goes like this.<\/p>\n
I get to the end of a long day of project tinkering. I am just about to retire to The Gillmore Girls. I see something temptingly easy to fix \u2013 a misdirected link \u2013 I click to fix \u2013 bang \u2013 something else happens unexpected \u2013 by now I am tired – I try a few stupid things in desperation as the title music for Gilmore Girls swells up \u2013 more unexpected things \u2013 bang bang bang \u2013 I have broken the whole thing and no way can I remember how to fix it.<\/p>\n
Later that day I get a very nice e-mail from my niece who has been trying to access my site \u2013 \u201cis the problem at her end\u201d she asks benignly \u2013 I want to kill myself for my own stupidity.<\/p>\n
At the end of this blog is the technical explanation as to why I get confused and keep messing things up.<\/p>\n
The Strictly finale was truly amazing. Production values and choreography through the roof \u2013 why oh why do people sneer at light entertainment \u2013 in my experience it blows most serious art out of the water \u2013 name me one degree course in light entertainment? \u2013 now name me less than 1000 degrees in drama. Time for a change?<\/p>\n
This tiresome distinction we make between high a low art really has no values unless you are a snob. High art derives influences from popular art and vice Versace ( leaving that typo). It always has. Monteverdis operas took inspiration from popular songs forms and bawdy comedies, Mozarts from the music halls. I quite dislike people, yes I really do I have concluded, who make this distinction, who pride themselves on only listening to a certain genre of music \u2013 either way is just as bad, oh I can’t listen that posh stuff or I can’t listen to that its all just noise . For the sake of your ears and your brains just open them for once. Popular culture and posh culture are all the same \u2013 just great noise. There is no such thing as art art is just stuff just like you and I are stuff.<\/p>\n
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\nTECH BELOW<\/p>\n
\u2022 My sites are run from my own servers at my house on a fixed IP address that I rent from BT
\n\u2022 At the time that I set them up needless to say I did not have much idea of what I was doing so I ended up with several Apache servers rather than one each one operating on the same fixed IP but from different ports :80, :81, :82 etc
\n\u2022 Not ideal and for sure there is a better way but too late now as I cannot be bothered to change it
\n\u2022 I bought the domains gravityisahat.com cancerwithoutgod.com and fleeting.eu separately without web space ( I am providing that) and then using the control panels provided by the domain sellers I direct the domains to my servers using the fixed IP plus the port address.
\n\u2022 At least one of the domain sellers systems does not accept ports as part of a redirect
\n\u2022 Thus I have to create bounce pages from the main IP to the port address
\n\u2022 Some browsers don’t like this
\n\u2022 Some mail server don’t like mail arriving from domains to which the main URL is not associated
\n\u2022 Any changes you make take up to 48 hours to populate across the web<\/p>\n
HENCE THE AWFUL MESS EVERY TIME I TINKER SORRY SORRY SORRY I get so embarrassed by my incompetence. I just want you you all to get my news and I make such a dogs breakfast of it.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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